Over the holidays, by choice, I spent alone in thought about my life and current situation. I started thinking about my father and his death. How nobody other than me took care of remains and saw to it that his last wishes were followed.
Out of curiosity, I was looking at urns for keeping ashes. I found a place that had “scratch and dent” urns and urns that could not be sold (due to some defect in manufacturing) so they were free except for shipping. SO, I bought one… Not what I would have picked had all things been the same (price) but hey, it was free except for the $30 to ship it to me…
After I ordered it, I got to thinking about how that is just so “me”. Warehouse sales, garage sales, discounted store merchandise, used items, free at the curb items, that has been my life. I LOVE it. If it is old, worn, not so perfect, or a little “beat up”, that is what defines me, so this urn (which only has a couple blemishes on the outside) is so perfect for a temporary place to put my remains… As you can see, I opened it, and have it on display next to my TV for now. I may re-box it and put it in the closet for storage at some point. BUT very fitting for me…
Not at all what most people would do, but as I said, I have been doing a lot of thinking and I want to be as prepared for the end as possible, not to be a burden on anyone, since at this point, I don’t believe that I can rely on anyone to make the “arrangements”. I love michelle, but I certainly don’t want her to worry about what to do when the time comes.
There comes a time in your life, some sooner than others, where you look back in your life and then look ahead and wonder how much time you have left. I will only be 48 this year but if my grandfather or my father are any indication, I only have a good 20 maybe 25 years left! Not much time if you really think about it. Step back and think about this little detail for a second and you will realize how quick life can be. Month by month, year by year, ticking by quicker than you may believe.
Make everyday count, live with no regrets, and by all means by a scratch & dent casket if you can find one! Do you REALLY care what it looks like, you will be dead!!
Until then… enjoy the ride!